Talk to Me

I read a LOT, I scan, I skim and take it all in, my interests know no stop. It's true I touch on a wide range of thoughts and things here on the blog but believe me that's nothing, Read more

November Weekend - A Picture Post

I know I said a picture post but while your're here you might consider checking out my new 'About Me' and let me know what you think, over there preferably or here, also good. If you would Read more

If You Can't Take the Beauty, Get Out of my Kitchen

Our kitchen revamp's not yet finished but it's well underway. We've papered the two sides in our jade green, bird and vine wallpaper and painted the gable in pale blue grey. I've added some of my elegant 'girl lamps', Read more

Home Style

All week I've been cooking solely on our wood fired range and dreaming of colour, pattern, texture, the juxtaposition of things and to be fair, there's inspiration everywhere. I noted it all and then BOOM... a new kitchen. Well one Read more

I Don't Want to Die!

I had the strangest week last week, a string of events brought me down like just like domino's it went, my daughter left for college, I had a birthday (a crappy day) and then it was said to me, Read more

To The Mountain

Going to the mountain, the Sliabh an Iarainn mountain that overlooks Ballinamore is, for my Dad, going home, as he was born and raised there. It's also where I spent many happy childhood days at my grandparents house. Last week Read more

Is This Real Life or Just Fantasy?

Dear friends, it’s a playschool morning so I’ve a few precious hours in which to DO something that will make me happy for the rest of the day or to do nothing and be rightly pissed off.

I have this blueprint I can’t seem to shake where it’s only the things I get done before lunchtime that count and whatever they are break or make the hours I’ve left.

Afternoon is frustratingly crowded with uniform changes and homework, laundry, phone calls (ugh) and actual lunch and etc, bah humbug.

Evenings are dinner and clean up and catch up and tiredness, I resent tiredness and sleep, and don’t forget that major mothering role, keeping the peace, she did this and don’t do that and she did what???

It’s frustrating, but if I get on top of things early it has a knock on effect. The more I get done, early, the more I seem able to do. And you know I feel I get nothing done really, ever, not yet, nothing like what I want, nothing like what I’m capable of.

People are always saying to me, ‘How do you do it?’ They’d love to be a fly on the wall they say, they ask, ‘How do you write a book and a blog and run that fb page and paint, garden and so on with a family, children etc?’ And all the time I’ll be thinking I did/I do these things because I want to, I decided to BUT it’s nothing when you want to be completely and utterly absorbed, forget everything, forget your living. It’s not even the tip of the iceberg.

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Because I have this constant yearning to create, create, create and it’s real, it’s me, I know that now. I’ve surrendered, committed myself to it wholeheartedly, for better or for worse, for whatever happens. I don’t care where it leads me, if it goes nowhere, it’s just how I am and how I’m going to be, and when I start, writing, painting, styling, photographing, decorating, I find I don’t want to stop, ever, not for anything. Nothing on earth could entice me. To me that’s reality.

My ideal day would start early, I like six, a quarter to six? Even better. The house would be just tidy enough so as not to distract me. I’d have coffee, outside preferably, and step straight into a dress without having to search for it…maybe dress before outside coffee.

My hair would just fall into place, my eyes would magically work without hassle of lenses or glasses and I’d magically have make up on because I can’t spare even a second. I could, and at the height of writing my book I have gone straight from the bed to my book and got right down to it BUT I don’t want distractions later, I don’t want to feel bleugh and have to take a break to get dressed once I’ve started! Are you crazy!!! I don’t want any breaks!  This is why the best thing is to be ready to get down to work so I don’t have to stop, ever, remember?

Magically ready like that I’d write the poems that are in me, the concepts for photography, the next draft for my book, a short story, my ‘about me’ for the blog! I’d capture a few of those blog post ideas that keep whooshing right past me, settle on one, then another and other.

Then I’d eat, something easy, no cutting or cooking no mess, not sure what but delicious, write lists while I’m eating and the paints would be magically in front of me and for the first time I’d release all that’s in me, no walls or distractions.

By the time Adrian gets home with a takeaway, not your usual takeaway, something amazing, scented, north African,  feel just great after you eat it (in other words doesn’t exist) and he asks me how was my day and I tell him all I got done and we talk and eat and laugh and drink champagne and go for a walk and talk some more and marvel at our surroundings and each other and congratulate ourselves and I’m bursting with ecstasy.

All my work tucked away or set free, all except that large scale painting and where we should put it. ‘The west wall of the sitting room,’ says Adrian confidently. ‘Oh yes perfect, I suppose we should pick up the children?’ ‘No need, the aunts have them.’ 

The End

 a jane a b

 

 

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The Last Day of Autumn

It’s the second last day of autumn, All Hallows Eve and just look at my girl in the lane with the leaves and compare as I did but don’t cry as I did about how she looked such a short time ago, in this post, Autumn in the Lane

adrians girl

And here is our cat…Ernest Hemingway…

His normal expression’s more friendly…never thought I could love a cat.

My granny would have loved to know this, she was always trying to convince me and laughing at my protests. This is his tree, it’s a lilac, he has it destroyed the poor tree. We should probably cover it with mesh or something, any ideas?

Our garden philosophy is ‘survival of the fittest’ because we are learning on the job and because we don’t have time to mollycoddle anything and because we are about abundance, excess and wildness and don’t fancy straight rows of anything.

adrian cat

We’ve been busy decorating inside, update’s coming soon and getting the garden ready for winter, picking the last of the flowers, mowing everything down, bulb planting, tidying.

The autumn colours are blinding, beautiful, rich, deep and lingering…

adrian leaves

adrians beauty leaves

I’ve been running ahead of Adrian, gathering seeds, hundreds and thousands. I love the architecture of the seed heads and their ingenious bid for continuance. While some are delicate, papery and gentle and others need a shaking, one, I don’t know its name, has a spiky stem with seeds lying open along the spikes, it’s astonishing I think along with all my protests as it stings me.

Love in a Mist is our most prolific producer, hundreds of silky round caverns of seeds bursting. Our whole garden might next year be blue.

adrian seeds

Potting, re-potting, resting, noticing, there’s two of the people I love and the colours surround us.

adrian and saoirse

Seeds drying in the greenhouse…

adrian paper

Don’t rush…

adrian the lane saoirse

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